Once my son asked me just to know how much the money we have.. He knew that big money has to be kept at the bank. He said; "Nda.. please tell me how much do you have.." I told him it's enough for us.. Nda,.. please, how much??

It's about 500 million, I said.. (that's just amount I really want to be free at my account he2..) Woow... that's right bunda, it's enough for us, he said..

Like mom, like son...

He started to make a list.. How much the rest if I spend Rp 103 million and 342 million??, he said. Just add it.. It's Rp 445 million.. then, you still have 55 million..

"What great bunda!!", he said. It's enough.. I am gonna buy 1 unit Xenia Xi, and New Honda Accord.. Then, bunda, you may take the rest to buy things you want to.. Nda., please besok ambil aja ya uangnya dari bank..

Ni hao.. peng-you... Ni men dou hao bu hao..

Cody, Ni mang ma?? Doain gw bisa cepet pesen "Fortuner" lewat Radio Dalam.
Madizam, Wo de hao peng-you, wo de Lao shi.. Wo jiang hua yu yi dian-dian le.. Ni de dian hua haoma tulalit mulu.. mama masih di Bali?
Iwan Santosa, Ni hen mang a?? Wo khan Kompas phao che, habis ngliput di perbatasan ya.. oleh-oleh dong...
Lao shi, Ni jia ren hao ma?? Diannian.. Jadwal ngajar padat ya??)
Intan, Kristian, Eki, Tante ngga ada kado.. Wo mei you qian... he, he..
Pak Paulus, Nanti kita ke rumah..

Temen-temen, wo de hao peng-you...

Kulihat dari kejauhan, nampak setitik sinar kasih

membuat kegelapan malam sedikit terusik

dalam keremangan terlihat lelapnya pepohonan

ku berharap, ditariknya kasihku ke dalamnya

dunia yang terang benderang

yang mampu sedikit demi sedikit memberikan nafas kehidupan

memberikan secercah harapan untuk hidup

melihat keindahan dunia

dengan hamparan lautnya dan hijaunya hutan belantara

aku melihat, setitik sinar kasih

mendekatlah, atau aku akan mendekat..

Kupunya sekuntum bunga mawar kuning

menggantikan sekuntum mawar merahku

yang tlah gugur

Kuingin persembahkan 'tuk kekasihku

pujaan sampai akhir hayatku

yang slalu ku mohon kan jadi bidadariku

dalam alam keabadian

tiada yang kan tahu

nilai dari sekuntum mawar kuning

tanda rasa kasih sayang

nilai dari rasa cinta

sekuntum mawar kuning

warnanya berarti kedamaian yang ingin ku berikan

harumnya menunjukkan kasih sayangku

yang tak kan hilang

dengan berputarnya roda waktu

walaupun layu ditelan waktu

Keinginanku untuk hidup selalu dekat denganmu

seperti perjalanan waktu yang tiada henti

yang tak bisa dipenggal

walau oleh dirinya sendiri

Keinginanku untuk selalu memandang dirimu

seperti malam menyambut datangnya pagi

dan pagipun menyambut datangnya siang

tiada henti, dan tak kan pernah dapat dihentikan

baik oleh dirinya sendiri

Seribu satu keinginanku atas dirimu

seperti air hujan membasahi bumi

dari langit, melalui pegunungan

melalui sungai nan sejuk

menjadi hamparan laut nan luas

mengalir tiada henti

dan.. tak kan pernah dapat dihentikan

hanya satu yang dapat menghentikan

atas kehendak-Nya

dirimu berkeinginan lain

kehidupan tanpa diriku

Pada dirimu memancar sinar kedamaian

kelembutan sinar kasih

terpancar jelas dalam sorot matamu

senyum manismu

bagiku

dirimu adalah keindahan

sekuntum bunga dari surga

yang tak kan pernah layu

walau ditelan waktu dan badai

aku ingin memetikmu

keindahan sekuntum bunga nan abadi

dalam cintaku yang suci

dan kekal

sebagaimana doaku pada Sang Pencipta

bungaku

walau dalam setiap doaku

engkau adalah bungaku

namun, aku tunduk pada Hukum Sang Pencipta

Taqdir..

namun ku berharap, dalam setiap waktuku

Tuhan memberikan engkau

sebagai kekasih abadiku

berdua mengarungi samudera kehidupan

dalam bahtera KEBAHAGIAAN

I want to see life as a balance between giving and receiving, between taking care of myself and taking care of others.. The next time I see someone in trouble, instead of just passing by or feeling guilty about being unable to help, I will try to be the one that can do something good. Perhaps I can offer something as simple as a kind word or a smile.. May be I can help this person begin to feel appreciated and loved..

As so, I have to be always loving myself and always to start the new day with smile... To do everything my best..

Senin... I hate Monday.. to Friday.. he,he,

Life was so hectic on the weekend... Lumayan fruitful..

Aku lagi terlena to "Geisha" book.. 'Bro' said this book is "buku wajib baca". He brought me that book.. And now I am about half to finish it. It's so touching.. Maunya mewek aja soalnya terlalu dihayati.. Kasian.. I even have seen the movie while I've not finished the book yet. How pity... It's just because I can't wait any longer to know how the story flows and end. But most of all, I am eager to see how the "Trio Chinese Idol" be a famous Geisha in Gion. They are so amazing!! I love Ziyi Zhang "Sayuri" very much.. Bening banget.. Terus.. no need to be explained in detail lah, cause the movie does.. Muntah ntar... He, he...

Tapi, di atas segala-galanya tu... The big question is who could give the answer ;
WHEN THE STORY AND THE TRUE LIKE "GEISHA" AND WHATEVER IT'S CALLED NOWDAYS CAN BE STOPPED????

Women in the world.. Do you realize what had happened and what is happening to all women in the world?? Dari jaman batu, jaman sebelum masehi, jaman nabi-nabi, sampai sekarang.. Perempuan memang dijajah laki-laki... It's just because men still alive..
Why men always play the rule??

GEISHA..
Hanyalah satu di antara ribuan, jutaan, bahkan milyaran proses "metamorfosis" makhluk hidup untuk meraih kualitas hidup yang lebih tinggi. Dia berharap persis seperti kepompong yang berproses hendak menjadi kupu-kupu. Kupu-kupu yang memiliki keindahan dan keunikan yang kemudian bisa menikmati segarnya udara, indahnya dunia, taman bunga, beterbangan dengan sesama teman-temannya, padahal dahulunya terkurung dalam rumahnya yang kecil dan tidak melihat dunia luar. Harapannya adalah... kemenangan dan kesempurnaan.

Semua makhluk hidup sesungguhnya bergerak menuju penyempurnaan..
Bagaikan biji-bijian ketika disebar di atas tanah yang subur, masing-masing akan tumbuh menjadi dan menuju dirinya sendiri.

Dan sesungguhnya akupun dalam proses tumbuh menjadi dan menuju diriku sendiri..
Dengan harapan pencapaian kemenangan dan kesempurnaan.. SEMOGA..

Finally, I sit down and start to write.. It feels I have been trying for ages but never manage to..

Well.. Now I found myself sitting down here, with my husband and my beloved son Raul.. Feel that I just closed my eyes for a little while.. Then.. now I found everything's changed..

How wonder??...
Let me start from the time I let him (husband now) enter into my life.. It was a giant step for me... To make up my mind.. To make a Decision... It was the thing ultimately determines who I become and where I go in life.. Yes.. It's MY DECISION.. It's in that moments that my destiny is shaped. More than anything else, I believe MY DECISION - Not the conditions of my lives - determine my destiny.. Then.. I'd come to my decision that -HE- IS MY DESTINY... huuuuaaa...

It started by saying hello.. then... that moment came..
He expressed good things about me...

Tissa...
(Name given to me as "Tiyu sayang")

Dirimu..
Buram tabir di penghujung temaram..
Berganti hari diterpa mentari pagi..
Menyinari buana rona dewata..
Menanti asa tidak sendiri..
Merenda kasih bersama menguak kelam..

Indah bahasa, lembut pekerti..
Hasrat dahaga jauh rencana..
Dekat memohon tak jemu mengingatkan..
Mencoba melintas badai..
Untuk berlabuh di dermaga kasih..
Semoga...

Being appreciated by those nice words.. I brought him into incredible words..
It's just for him.. as birthday present.. April 20, 1998
"Once In a Life Time"..

When I met you..
I had no idea how much my life was about to be changed..
But then, how could I have known??
A love like ours happens once in a lifetime..
You are a miracle to me,
The one who was everything I had ever dreamed of..
And when you came into my life..
I realized that what I had always thought was happiness..
Couldn'd compare to the joy..
Loving you brougt me..
You are apart of everything..
I think and I do and feel..
And with you by my side,
I believe that anything is possible..
THANK YOU..
for the miracle of you, you are and always will be
THE LOVE OF MY LIFE..

Love
Tissa, 20-04-1998

And, Now..

I found myself live between the two angels.. Adam & Raul.. Huu.. tersanjung deh..

We've been about 7 years in togetherness at last..

For all the special things they do, it bring a world of love to them..

Deep in my heart, I wish GOD will always strengthen us..

To always protect us and rescue us from fear and doubtfulness..

In every second of our life, here we are,.. in front of You, beside You..

To THANK YOU.. and to ask for Your FORGIVENESS..

THANK GOD.. ALHAMDULILLAH..

Tahun Baru?? I talked to myself that the start of each new year can mean a chance, to leave behind the past, to concentrate on brand new hopes and to look ahead to joys that last. It also can bring a chance to learn and to explore, to do something I want to try, something I have never done before. The start of each new year can also mean a chance to grow and open up by getting closed to others..

To do everything good is a must.. Cause I don't have to learn from doing something bad or wrong.. I merely beg from above to always remind me, to protect me and lead me to be always a blessed person in this world everafter..

I took a good words from a friend of mine, that:
Health make all things possible, Wealth makes all things work, Love makes all things beautiful..
Indeed,,, I hope to have all these three all through the years...

This time,.. I have to relay my big thanks to GOD..
For everything's given to me, to my family, to my life..
Far from Him... No.. NEVER..
GOD.. In every inch of my step.. I beg You to be always with me..